User blog comment:Mugensou/Let me hear you./@comment-5772630-20150129030013

First of all, i’m saying this as a psychology student as that’s the lense i view things through.

I have no idea what my spending would be categorized as? Probably some form of fish but not really a whale… to me a whale is someone who consistently goes for rankings, has entire teams of five star MLB cards, or is able to keep up in a top guild. I will spend occasionally on events i really like?

I will try for rankings if the daemons appeal to me art wise AND can fit my team. FH usually, though the current tower (spirit collection) i am aiming for TR. I'm doing that in the hopes that i can get a "whale" lead to ward off stronger players. Being able to defend myself was actually what started my spending back in the halloween 3 event; good defense cards are hard to get. Outside of buying SW (and now remedies) i generally don't spend, not even when i like the summons. Summons are a waste.

For me, when ranking, it isn't the thrill of the rankings that i enjoy. I’m actually terribly unbalanced when i try to rank because i know i can easily lose everything and that my only option is to spend more. At that point in time, i don’t want to lose what i’ve put in; cutting one’s losses is hard.

I see this game as a my way of risk taking. Some people do drugs, some people have unprotected sex, some people shoplift, i play AGG. The game is pretty much a casino and I've turned into someone with a gambler's addiction. That rush when you pull a good card from RS after weeks of saving up tapjoy offers to get a 30 day, that satisfaction of having "earned" a wonderful card via ranking, the relief that comes with being able to afford something in barter that you want, it's the sweetest thing. At that point no one and nothing else matters, i have the dopamine rush i need to keep me up for the rest of the night.

I’m not saying that everyone who cashes is like me, I'm simply stating my own observations of myself. I use this game as a crutch when i’m emotionally unstable; i can be big here when i feel small. I can get cheap thrills from games when i feel miserable in real life.